So, I've been back here in the US for a week now and I've just about adjusted back to normal. Hey look, I can write more than one phrase in English without feeling the urge to switch back to Spanish...and to me, well, that's a little sad.
Over the past 6 ½ weeks I've learned a lot, and it's my belief that I've changed a lot too. But, you guys can make that decision for yourselves once you spent more time with me.
When I say that I've changed, I don't mean like that fact that I say "Vale" in place of "OK" or the fact that I might speak to you in Spanish without realizing it. I don't even mean it in the fact that when I'm in a crowd of people speaking English I get headaches (which I do, idk why). I think that some of my morals and ideas of the world itself have changed.
So, yeah, I'm not going to be eating McDonald's anymore (Nick would be proud) and I'm going to refer to the way things were in Spain a lot. It's not that I don't love the US anymore, it's that I feel like Spain is my adoptive country. Now that I've rambled a bit, back to my point. The world to me seems a little bigger now and I feel a little more free. The last couple of years have been long and hard ones and after this summer I feel almost like a new person, like the old me is somewhere inside... a distant memory.
Because of this, I have some new principles, new ideas of the world and hopefully these will help change me for the better. This is my Senior year and I want to make the most of it. I am done with the drama, I don't want to be involved. I want to have all the time I can with my friends and family before its gone. ( and I know this sounds really cynical, but I believe that we need to recognize the time we have now before we all spread out to different colleges) I want to meet new people, try new things, make new friends, and do all the things I've always told myself I would, but haven't!
That's my new philosophy. Hopefully, you guys, my friends and family, can accept that and what changes you may see.
Secondly, yes, I miss Spain terribly, and sometimes I wake up thinking I'm in Spain. But, at the same time, I'm glad to be back because believe it or not, I've missed you guys. So, yes, I will consitently be talking about Spain, my friends in Spain, my family and my adoptive family in Spain, my group from Spain, SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN. BUT! I want to hear what you guys have done this summer and if I ever get on a tirade about Spain, please stop me. I don't mind. I'll survive...Megan, this may end up being your job! :)
OK, SO THATS IT FOR THE WARNING
Now I have to say how strange it is to be back now. Seeing you all is kind of like a dream. And not wearing shoes in the house and always having toilet paper is a plus to that dream (and this is another story)
So, FRIENDS, FAMILY, and random strangers who may be reading this: I say that we spend all the time we can this year, especially us SENIORS, together as much of the time as possible. I look foward to seeing you soon and I can honestly say that the end of this trip has brought the beginning of a new way of life for me.
I love you all with all of my heart,
Os quiero,
Kahle
